I'm happy to announce that my stress journal is going well. I'm both getting down daily entries on my stress level (which is nice) and the levels are steadily and rapidly going down (which is great). The bad news is, then I got a horrible flu.
That's the way it goes, isn't it? First you have stress and then once you've done everything and have a time to slow down, you get sick. In any case, that's what happened this time.
Still, flu is sort of interesting. In many ways, it's like stress. You can't be bothered to do stuff, feel sort of like crap and it gets better if you have a chance to relax and take it easy for a while. Also, it wrecks all sort of extra curricular activities, even though there would have been more time than ever to write stuff or meditate extra or something.
It's just hard to concentrate when your head is full of snot. It's a curious feeling, when you feel dumb. I tried to use Anki to practice Swedish, and it just didn't happen. I kept misreading the cards, which is really interesting, because I never do that. It felt like I'm suddenly missing 20 points of IQ.
A odd window into a life of a person less cognitive horse power. Existentially powerful stuff, when a simple flu can make me feel like a dumber/less able person. I remember doing this more easily before, know I should be able to do this easily and then just not being able to pull it off right now.
Even things I have always based my self-image on (like "I'm clever.") can actually be lost rather easily and who would I then be and how would I react to that?
Interesting stuff. Anyhoo, time to sleep it off some more. Hopefully less flu again tomorrow.