Thoughts on meditation. I have some 12 sessions behind me now. No cosmic wisdoms have made themselves apparent, but it's a cool hobby, nonetheless.

I've been testing out different situations and using binaural beats and no beats with meditation and sadly I haven't really noticed any patterns yet. The one main takeaway I have at this moment is that meditation when really tired doesn't seem to work that well. Mind wanders and you start to doze off and while it's nice and relaxing, it's not really the point.

Still, meditation IS very nice and relaxing. Had a pretty tough day today, had to do some Parenting and in general felt pretty tense. Luckily, had a moment for myself and used some of it for meditation (and the rest for writing this). Meditation does seem to help with the acute annoyances and grievances and restore some sort of emotional resources and focus.

In a computer game, it would regenerate mana.

I've been on vacation for a while now. While it's naturally very enjoyable, it's much harder to keep up good habits when away from home and the regular schedule. Have had to meditate while being pretty tired and haven't managed to keep as steady schedule as I'd like, for example.

The sessions themselves are usually pretty mellow. Haven't had any more of those wild bursts of happiness, and it's hard to say if I'm making progress and what kind of progress it could be. Don't really know if "progress" is something you have to go after when meditating, but still. It doesn't seem to be getting that much easier. I'm not that used to that. Most things I seem to master pretty quickly. Meditation, not so much.

Putting it that way actually makes practicing more sound more exciting.

So I'm actually waiting for next week and getting back into the office. Sleeping in my own bed for a proper eight hours, a hit of coffee and then an undisturbed session of office meditation.

Not sure if everyone would think that sounds exciting.