Huh, ok, whoa.

I've been doing meditation in a very regular manner for couple of months now and it has seemed nice and relaxing and all. There haven't been any that impressive or powerful experiences yet. Just sort of relaxing bits of time in between all the other stuff.

Today had a sort of a different session. At some point of the session, it became evident that there's something odd going on. Sort of like pressure, when something exciting is happening, but you are not sure if it's good or bad or if you should follow it through or stop in time. This has happened for a couple of times, but before I have usually stopped before anything interesting has happened.

This time I managed to see it through. It felt like passing through a barrier. Like a physical pressure on the eyes somehow. Then suddenly I was on the other side. There were small bits of thoughts, but nothing that really could grab my focus. I lost all sort of anxiety about meditating at the office and wondering how long it had been. Before it had been difficult to try to keep up the feeling of happiness and calmness, but now all effort just sort of slipped away.

I could just hang around in the feeling of calmness and stillness. Like being submerged in absolutely cold and crystal clear water and looking at stuff through it: weightless, without feeling the cold, still and clear, but different.

Once I decided to open my eyes, it had been 19 minutes. Way longer than I would have estimated and what it felt like.

Extraordinary experience.